My hands tremble more
I’ll lose my focus shortly
Why my broken legs standing here
I can’t even remember, I become scared
Where are you, who has laughing until just now

(Why) Have fun noises left me? You’re far away
(Why) Is it getting dim? These scars are like shackles

Curse me, curse me for letting go
Don’t leave me, my collapsed heart
Don’t leave me alone, I’m screaming
Want you, I want you like crazy
Your lips that left me shouldn’t love
Don’t love me, I threw you away

All I wanted was simply to give you an endless love
I had no idea that more excessive love would strangle you
Those days when I was torn from my wounded heart
A love that lost its way, I fill up with tears

(Why) Is it that I still only bring out sad hellos
(Why) Just until today, don’t push me away

*Repeat

I hope that you’ll catch on
That I’m a different you
I even embrace your
Nightmare from last night
Don’t let go of my hand

*Repeat

Your side, your side that has become cold
Don’t leave me, my torn heart
Don’t become even further away
Although I’m holding your hand
Remember, end it, I can’t forget you
I won’t forget my pain of being thrown away
I can’t forget it, you gave it to me

Even the reason I love became a sin
The deep wounds slowly
Burnt up and turned to ash
But to forget will be more painful than to lose it
As I kill my breath, I’m going to die
From the agony of goodbye
Bring it back to that moment

Don’t throw me away

 

 

 I sense there's something in the wind

That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by her

Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does she notice my feelings for her?
And will she see how much she means to me?

I think it's not to be.

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will her actions lead us then?

Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?

No, I think not, it's never to become.

For I am not the one.

 

 

 

 

 

 

and will we ever end up together ?

no, I think not, it's never to become.

for I am not the one.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=09ob-L-BNas

Feel those sweet, loving touches and hugs again.

Hear those lovely voices.

And feel that wonderfull feeling.

 

... wait. What am I doing.

What am I dreaming about.

 

No. 
It's just wrong.

 It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now

Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

 

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

 

Guess I'd rather hurt

Than feel nothing at all.

 

Yeah.

 

The pain of having a crush on someone who's already dating.

But it's only a stupid crush. I'll forget her.. hopefully.

 

Sorry I haven't wrote anything really important for ages. |'D

So.. yeah. Now I'm goin to tell you guys a bit about what's going on in my life.

 

I've had really big problems in my school. Now my mother asked that if I could stop learning German. It was okay with my rector.

You're so sweet, Vesa. I'm really thankfull.

'Cause I hate learning German ! For few reasons.. I don't know why I chosed it.

 

And yeah. I had a little conflickt with few of my 'friends'.. but it's solwed too. But I'm still angry..

 

And my father's girlfriend still hates me. I hate her too. Die you fucking asshole ♥

 

But yessss... Actually I'm really happy right now. 'Cause I can talk to my crush and we have really good time together ^ ^ But the only problem is that I'd like to feel her words in a bit different way.. 

 

And we ordered my Giotto-cosplay's wig today n____n ! ♥ I'm going to get that costume as soon as my mother buys it.. I hope that that's soon. I'd show you some pictures when I have that wig, and when I have that whole costume.

 

I'm going to get eyeglasses.. 'cause my head aches always when I read something. Right now too.

But it's okay, I think that glasses suit me pretty well.

 

 

 

 GUYS I NEED YOUR ATTENTION. I NEED YOUR LOVE.

I NEED THE FEELING WHEN YOU COME TO ASK ME THAT "ARE YOU ALLRIGHT?"

BECAUSE I'M NOT. I FEEL SO FUCKING LONELY.

I NEED LOVE. I NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU HAVEN'T FORGET ME.

....

 

please.