For a long time..
I've admired one person.
That person's a girl. I'm also a girl.
I love her.
I love her.
But for ever..
.. A one sided love.
There's never been a way we could have been friends.
Not even for a second.
At first, I didn't even notice this was love.
Just simply..
Getting gaught up in it and getting furstrated and disgusted.
It was no use trying not to care.
Her words, her attitude.. I couldn't accept it without protesting.
Eventually..
I noticed myself being conscious of everything about her.
That I love her.
No matter how much I adore her or how much I spend time with her,
I'll be her 'friend'.
I'm the one what's wrong.
Even tought I know that..
.. I stil want to...
.. Be her special someone.
.. But I know that we can't be more than 'just friends'.
No matter how much I adore her I can't do anything about it.
I love her.
This is better than nothing; being able to even stay close to her.
Just as friends.
A special relationship called friendship.
.. but sometimes it's just not enough.
Yes.
So.. it's something that I can't wish for.
.. I want to be touched just a bit differently.
.. Or to hear my name called in a slightly different voice.
To set your eyes on me..
.. Differently.
Thinking of those things is just wrong.
I should lear about my old mistakes..
but no.
I love you.
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